Forever thankful to be gentle enough to break myself down in order to be strong enough to build myself back up.
Today we will talk about entitlement; just like the “Am I Sensitive?” blog I am here to admit I am, trying not to be, entitled to a persons ability to do anything that involves me. I would love to try to figure out how to differentiate entitlement from respect but I don’t really know where to begin…if I don’t hold people accountable that will result in disrespect right?
I rEsPeCt YoU sO yOu HaVe TO rEsPeCt mE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That’s not how it works at all, in fact a person doesn’t have to do anything and I’m just now growing up high enough to understand it’s nothing I can do about that. Except accept it in order to respect it (or myself) enough to not deal with it and that’s it, it’s really no common ground without making excuses and I’m no longer willing to compromise with the “but’s” of life as far as considering what I sincerely have a distaste for. In a perfect world reciprocation wouldn’t be as tedious as it is for me, which has resulted in me taking the initiative to be around those who understand the concept of common courtesy to make my life “easier” when it comes to co-existing with others. At this point in my life I’m pretty
“tired” for a lack of words disinterested in the eagerness of things as simple as having to prove my willingness like I’ve said before, and in my journey of breaking the habit of having a kink for finding comfort in being uncomfortable… I’ve been allowed a lot of time to self reflect so I can rework my life (take accountability for how I’m treated because it starts with me but that’s a conversation for another day).
With that I’ve noticed Entitlement is rooted in selfishness and it is selfish of me to have expectations for people who did not ask to have the responsibility of carrying out my premeditated expectations of them, that more than likely doesn’t even have anything to do with them, but make up for something someone has already done. That I use to define what relationships, in general, are regardless of individuality in contrast. Or realizing even if I don’t choose to hold expectations over a persons head when dealing with them, understanding that the outcome might be repetitive because I keep surrounding myself around the same kind of people.
So shame on me.
Entitlement will also have you unintentionally questioning yourself as well, especially if you’re the type to internalize the actions of others like I use to. It’s been a many of times where I just said “What’s wrong with me?” because I felt like… and I promise it’s not that serious. You just have to take things for exactly what they are.
Well that’s it for this chapter of unlearning bad habits. This process I’m going through calling myself out has been for the better, I function a lot more swiftly since I’m more light hearted. I promised to extend my ability to be over-standing to myself and it’s the best thing I could’ve done. Until next time.
Wishing Everybody Peace x Joy x Prosperity Always, All Ways.
Talk To You Later