“What do you see when you see me?”

Before we start here’s some food for thought, Black Michael Jackson.. and White Michael Jackson were definitely conspiracy theories.

I am more than sure everybody wonders how they are perceived by “the people” whether you care or not, it’s a thought.

I’d say 70+ percent of those people are thinking appearance wise while the other percentile wonders “WHAT MAKES A PERSON NOT BELIEVE IN ME??? HOW DID I PRESENT MYSELF FOR A PERSON TO THINK I’M DUMB?”

This refers to any instance. (It often happens to me with friendships in particular.)

In my case I wonder why people insult my intelligence, question my character, or just do not believe in my capabilities of being a honest person generally.

I think people go out of their way to not pay attention to another persons sincerity. Or maybe they are just truly oblivious to the experiences.

I’ve also developed an understanding that not every one can reciprocate the love they are given because they aren’t use to it. So can I blame them for treating me the only way they know how to treat people? It’s a tough decision to decide if you’re willing to make it your “job” to prove yourself to people in honor of defending yourself when realistically they probably don’t even care. They’ve become accustom to how they’re living, how people treat them. In a way I feel bad for people who adjust to being treated so crappy, they can’t enjoy the people who see so much more in them than they see in themselves.

At the same time I’m also very aware of Sensibility and it is hard to believe some people do not posses the ability to use it one bit. It’s there regardless if you choose to not display emotion externally…it’s there.

Hopefully people start picking up on the sincerity of a person so the giver doesn’t become tired,discouraged, or just choose to change their demeanor in all.

Take pleasure in a persons care for you whether it lasts forever for not! Don’t let that kind of energy go to waste.

Experiences will either create a new person or new perspective.. not always for the greater good either.

Wishing everyone Peace, Joy, and Prosperity xoxo.

Featured Song: Brent Faiyaz – Insecure

Do We Deprive Ourselves Love By Not Disregarding What We Love 

What is compromising? Is it an essential in a relationship? Can your relationship succeed without compromising with your partner? Do you agree with the  “You must  Take it or Leave it?”

How can you balance loving more than one thing ? I’m not referring to the love of a parent verses who you’re in a relationship with. I’m saying can you love “partying” for instance as much as you love your partner? It’s been many breakups due to the fact “they loved ___ more than they loved me” and I think if you feel such a way don’t make the person balance their lifestyle just accept it or move on. I’m sure it wouldn’t be any hard feelings after a while understand the loved one may not feel that the balance is important but I also feel as before you entered the relationship you knew and still decided to become “one” with the them. Meaning you were accepting.

As if … you would compromise.

Now don’t think the person who doesn’t want to necessarily “compromise” isn’t going through a battle themselves. They have to debate whether or not they want to balance their love life with the stuff they love or do they want to finish loving what they desire guilt-free. “Do they love what they love enough to not care about receiving love from another person. Ultimately the answer is what many people are scared to do, which is end it. As time progressed it was written somewhere in the rules of life that we must eventually settle down. We must “settle” Without any logical explanation besides to finish help populating the world and keeping humanity alive.

I believe in being selfish, nonetheless especially in predicaments like these, because who has your back more than you? It’s important not to lose touch with what you love because then you’ll be miserably in love and that’s not what love is about. If it’s “destined” to be then all will work out, an unconditional balance will be created, and all aspects are to be respected. That’s the true kind of balance and the real meaning of compromising.

To close out I advise you to go listen to “PRIDE” by Kendrick Lamar off his Latest Project “DAMN.”

“People think I’ve changed on them”

Why can’t people accept the fact you can outgrow them? It’s never personal, you should actually be proud of me! Encourage me to go even further. It’s no love loss just more knowledge to be gained, you should adapt to getting away from people who don’t want to see you grow up instead of being in a stagnant place in life. Those type of people probably just want you around for entertainment purposes and that extremely toxic.

It’s unfortunate that people think because you can days without talking to them they’ve done something wrong, which makes me wonder.. “what did you do?”, and they feel like they need an explanation on why you stopped communicating with them, momentarily for the most part. Understand we just don’t relate anymore it’s okay no hard feelings I wish you the best, you won’t be forgotten.

It’s sad that people live with the thoughts you must stay extremely close to people in order to avoid conflict of you being labeled as “fraud”. Maybe the person that’s being “left behind” should incorporate some type of positive change in their life so they aren’t focused on what others are doing in a somewhat negative way. I can’t believe people give grief over someone prospering. I get it a lot of friendships end over people “changing” in good or bad ways but the good is always mistaken for “snob-like” behavior so it turns into envy and people feel like they can disrespect you quite often because “who do you think you are?” 

To wrap it all up I just encourage people to understand sometimes you won’t relate with certain people as you continue to grow. Don’t make the person feel bad for prospering in fact just be apart of their support system, nine times out of ten they forever love you for that.